"smother" us lord

so, for about a year, i have been leading a college and career group at my church. sometimes i don't feel like it makes much difference because my friends are the ones that attend and i figure that they would come no matter what. you know, as a way to show me that they support me in all that i do. however, a couple of other girls (one i kind of knew and the other i didn't know at all) started coming to group.

one of the girls was home for summer break from college and the other just recently got saved and started coming. they are both such great girls! i wish the one didn't have to go back to school so soon!

anyway, God has really been showing me that this group is great! not because i'm leading. i mean, it has nothing to do with me! i literally just go and say what God tells me to or do what He's led me to do. how affective it is has to do with Him and the openness of the others. so, i guess i want to share with you a couple of things He has or is showing me.

He is showing me that obedience is what is important! i may not know what is going on, but i do know that He is always working around me! i should know that He has something bigger than i can ever imagine going on behind the scenes! from now on, i just need to do and not worry! He has everything under control!

he has also shown me that our little group is so loving! its like we are forming a little family! everyone who comes in and goes out will be apart of us forever! we will be brothers and sisters and we should love one another like it.

one of the girls said she felt trapped by God. i feel like God spoke to me in the shower today and told me to tell her that we are not trapped, but that He is smothering us... now, when i hear smother, i think of food... i know, how ridiculous, but i'm so serious! now, maybe God spoke to me using food, because i love to eat or maybe it was the easiest... i guess it doesn't matter. anyway, i feel like by using "smother," He's saying that He totally covers us! saturates us almost. from head to toe. there is nothing we can do to get him off and it's ok... it makes me think of psalm 139:7-12:

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

so, that, for the most part, is what i feel like He is saying to me. i know He is not done speaking to me, but for not, i must go.

two days until hillsongs live, three day at work, five days w/ the boys, and seven days until vacation...

so, the other day, i was on facebook chatting with a close friend and typed, "WHOA!!" at that moment, i realized that when i use exclamatory statements, i totally say them out loud!! it made me laugh soooo hard that i couldn't type for like two minutes. i know i'm not the only one who does silly things like this but i had to share it! so, just know that if i ever type or text things that are exciting, i'm probably saying them at my computer screen! :)

okay, now the real thought. i only have two days until hillsong live, three days at my one job, five days w/ the boys, and seven days until vacation! oh my goodness (totally said out loud)!!! i am soooo stinking excited! i cannot wait to go on vacation! my whole summer has been waiting on it to come! it is going to be so good to get away from stress.

we are going to the outer banks. so, that week will be sun, sand, and lots of laughter!! i'm going with three girls from church. they have been my life support for the last few years. i have learned a great deal from them and i'm sure i would have done all kinds of crazy if they hadn't reached out to me when i came home from nannying!

so, if you girls read my blog, THANK YOU!!! i couldn't have made it without you! :)

i wish i wasn't so tired. if i wasn't, i'd share with you what God is doing in my life. maybe next time! :)

"When people are laughing, they are generally not killing each other," alan alda.