codependency sucks!

i dont know where im going with this. its after midnight and im emotional. i think i am codependent on someone and i hate it! i hate feeling like i need someone to be in my life. it feels like if they left, id fall apart! how can i spend my life like this? it makes no sense.

i call this person my best friend. i tell them everything! they are the first person i think to call when something funny or exciting happens. i hold nothing back. now, there are a few things ive never told them but somethings dont change friendships. (hope that makes sense) i talk to this person more than anyone else i know.

we argue like no one's business and sometimes threaten bodily harm (which isnt ever going to happen, dont worry). we laugh together, and they listen to me cry. neither of us always know what to say to the other but normally lend an ear.

i want to cut this person out of my life because i dont know how else to cut our talk time. i also dont want to feel like i cant survive without someone! what is my problem? why do i feel so out of control? someone, please help me here! codependency sucks!