Life is sooo crazy. I don't know where to begin. My sister had a baby on July 15th, 2010. KehLeigh Renee is the most amazing baby in the whole world! I think she brings so much joy to the lives of those around her. Her dad hasn't been around. She's six months now. Today he and his wife are coming over to visit her for the first time. First, he wasn't married when my sister met him. She's a new addition to his life. They got married not too long after Casey gave birth to KehLeigh. I guess it doesn't matter, Casey doesn't want him. I don't know how this will go. I'll let you know...

I really want kids, one day. Right now I'm totally okay with not having any. I can learn to care and love for kids by having my niece around. I want to be the best mom possible. There are things I still need to do and experience before I feel like I'm ready. No, I'm not even married! I do want to do that as well. For me, children aren't an option unless I'm married. It'll happen, I know it! Some days I get discouraged. Other days I know it's all in God's timing. I'm content though. Life is just as fun single as it would be if I was in a relationship. I want to be the best wife as possible, as well.

I am working on, or rather, letting God work on me. Purity of mind is an issue. I'm letting God in to work on it. Somethings take longer than others. I'm ready for change. I'm done screwing up.

God is so good. Even when we are not, He is! I am so thankful for a God who loves me even when I cannot find enough love to love myself. I've been having a hard time trying to love people and show them compassion. I've just grown tired and weary. However, I've been encouraged by three people this week. It makes me want to try harder; it makes me want to love more. One person told me that I am a great example of God's love! It was amazing! I can't describe how awesome that made me feel! The other two were equally encouraging! I love when that happens.

I'm not sure where this blog is going... So, to end, I'll leave you with this final thought:
"If you would be loved, love and be lovable." -Benjamin Franklin