oh alice, how did you do it?

so, lately i've been feeling a little alice from alice in wonderland. i feel like i've fallen down a rabbit hole. i feel like i'm spinning and spinning out of control! it's as if i'm falling and falling and i've no idea where i'm going to land. what if there's nothing soft at the bottom to catch me? what if i get caught on a branch halfway down and i'm stuck there forever? then i think, "if i fall and something soft catches me at the bottom, what happens next?" what becomes of me at the bottom? if i survive the fall, will i survive life in the rabbit hole? will i make it alone or will i need some help; if i need help, will there be anyone there to assist me? this whole thing is so scary. what if i don't make it? what if i get lost? will this fall be worth it in the end? oh alice, how did you do it?